WED. // 05|31|23

Good morning 🌄

Made myself my first cup of coffee ☕ since being in the house. Luckily, I have some cappuccino mix to give it a little flavor. Still need powdered creamer, due to my fridge STILL not working.

That’s life, things happen right? I’ll get through it.

Today is a good day because I’m going to be brainstorming some projects I can work on while I’m here, and I can’t wait to share them with you all.

Do you practice religion?

I do practice Christianity. I’ve been in the religion ever since I was born. I grew up in a Methodist church, and went to Sunday School. Even went through Confirmation and my Nana got me my first bible as a gift, which is the bible I still have now.

Once I got into my late teens, I went through a grieving period where I lost a relative, and I was acting out because of it. It also led me on my journey with mental health through the help of the doctors my mom found.

With everything I’ve gone through, I also come back to my religion when I’m going through something. Even though that is good, I’m working on seeking God daily, through the good, the bad, and the ugly.

Life as a Christian may sound tough because you want to live right, while trying to turn away from your “old self.” Take it from me, your journey is not going to be linear, you going to have moments where your faith is going to be tested.

But at the end of it, you’ll come out stronger in your faith and you can share your testimony with others that went through the same thing as you. Throughout your walk, you’re going to encounter a daily life lesson, it may take you time to realize it, but when you do, take what you learn and apply it to your life.

Ok, I have to go. I have to check and see if the fridge is running… literally, need to see if it works. I’ll check in with you all later on today.

Until next time…

♥️

TUES. // 05|30|23

Good morning 🌄

Really wish I could have took another day off. But I’ll remember that for next year. Didn’t do much, spent time with Mom and Nana.

Also got plenty of rest, until last night. Hopefully, I will get back on schedule and get another 8 hours of sleep.

Do you remember life before the internet?

Yes, I do.

I remember sitting in the living room, coloring in my coloring books. I used spend time in my room, watching cartoons, listening to CDs, journaling, and reading books.

I remember going to a lot of sleepovers at friend’s house, where we stayed up late singing songs, playing in makeup, watching movies, and eating junk food, not having a care in the world.

I remember games like Tamogatchi, Giga Pets, playing UNO with family, or Clue and Guess Who, while watching Nickelodeon cartoons like Hey Arnold, Rugrats, As Told by Ginger, The Angry Beavers, Rocket World, just to name a few.

Those were the days, can I go back to those days? Every now and then, I do. I’ll forever be a big kid at heart ❤️.

Ok, back to adulting 🙄🙄🙄🙄

Until next time…

♥️

MON. // 05|29|23

Good morning 🌄

Sitting here on my mom’s couch, spent most of the morning journaling and reading. At least I can actually take things slow today and not have to worry about a lot.

May has been a crazy month, between helping my Mom, and dealing with the house, to some of my own issues going on, May really went by so fast. It’s crazy.

What are you good at?

I love art, I love to draw. I think I can be honest and say I still got it, even though I haven’t drawn anything since…forever.

Once I started working, I kind of let drawing and my other passions fall to the back- burner. At one point, I remember falling in love with drawing again, but due to work, I fell out love with it, mostly because I felt like I wasn’t allowed to take mini breaks and draw to my heart’s content.

If I’m staring at a screen for 8 hours a day, I need to take time to look away and do something that doesn’t involve a screen. For me, that’s writing or drawing. Unfortunately, when my boss noticed I was putting more time into my drawings during working hours, then I had to cut back, which led to me giving it up all together.

Now that I’m working from home, I can find time throughout the day to get lost in colors or designs and express myself artistically.

Well, let me get the day started. Have to clean some dishes and make myself some coffee ☕. I’ll check in with you all later.

Until next time…

♥️

SUN. // 05|28|31

Good afternoon ☀️

The past few days have been a steady road of recovery as far as me getting sick on Thursday. I never want to experience that again, so I’m still taking it easy as far as what I’m fueling my body.

What does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable?

It’s been a month of living in Nana’s house, and it’s crazy that this prompt came up. I’ve been getting things, buying things to not only make parts of the house feel more comfortable for me.

These past few days only made me realize that I’m trying to fill a void with things, that I’m not living in the house to enjoy the experience and work on myself. I’m stressing myself out trying to fix things up in the house I have no control over.

Growing up, I remember having it all meant having the lastest clothes and shoes, working in a career where you’re making a lot of money, getting your first place in your teenage years, and living your best life.

Now, in my 30’s, having it all means staying close with family and friends, learning different parts about yourself daily, always trying something new and experience different things in life. And being to share your experiences with others to teach, inspire, motivate, and help others.

I feel like it’s hard to adapt to a new way of living if you don’t fully understand why you’re doing it. For me, living a more minimalist, simplified lifestyle can help me in so many ways.

Yet, I’m still so used to living in a society where we can’t seem to function without consumerism. I understand it’s okay to have nice things, but it can be overwhelming to have too many nice things.

I came across a 30-Day Minimalist Challenge for June to help me do more downsizing. In the meantime, Mom, Nana, and I are going for an outing today. I’ll check in with you all later.

Until next time…

♥️

SAT. // 05|27|23

Good morning 🌄

Got 6 hours of sleep, which was decent. Still a little groggy, but today is going to be a busy day so my reward will be a hot shower and relaxing sleep 🥱😴🥱😴🥱😴

Plus, it’s a three day weekend so I’m so glad I don’t have to work Monday.

Who would you like to talk to soon?

I need to check up on my friend, Jasmine. Earlier this weekend, she texted me, saying she sprained her ankle while she out gardening. I told her I was going to call her back, but with everything happening to me on my end, I let it slip my mind.

Reaching out to people has been my weak point, especially when COVID hit. Its easier for me to text people rather than call. But when lockdown first happened, everyone had to take time to get adjusted to being quarantined and living what would be considered “the norm.”

Now, I’m slowly working on calling and checking on people more. Still a work in progress, but I know that’s the key to keeping strong relationships: putting in the work to communicate between one another.

Well, let me get my day started. We have to run some errands today. So I’ll check in later on.

Until next time…

♥️

FRI. // 05|26|23

Good morning 🌄

I’m feeling much better than I did yesterday. Still tired due to poor sleep last night, so today will another resting day.

Also, going to write down my eating healthy list, because after yesterday I want to make sure I’m eating healthy for the mind, body, and soul.

Let’s just say when you eat something that doesn’t agree with you (food poisoning), it affects everything: your body, your mind, and your soul. It was hard for me to function throughout the day, I was catching up on sleep I missed, and inside I felt empty and relieved, but I was disappointed with myself that I allowed my health to get that affected.

So, we’re starting to do the work now. But first, rest and recover….

What personal belongings do you hold most dear?

Right now, the belongings I hold the most dear are the ones that have either sparked back my creativity or helped me continue my creativity.

Those belongings are my journals and sketchbooks. Another belonging I will cherish and guard with my life are two bibles that were given to me as gifts. One bible is a NASB Bible for Young Girls and Teens, the other is a KJV Bible that has been used and well-read.

The NASB Bible was given to me as a gift from my Nana. She celebrated her 88th birthday back in April, and through her time in hospital, we’ve been listening to the Bible using the app on Mom’s phone. On one of the days of going through my boxes, I found the Bible, along with two more that I got as birthday gifts to myself.

I’m working on reading the bible more, and what’s great about this Bible is that there are devotionals and prompts you can follow in your daily reading. I was going through a deep depression when she got me that bible and it helped me grow stronger in my faith and relationship with God.

It also reminded me that I need to get back to the basics when starting over in my life.

The KJV Bible was given to me as a gift from my high school sweetheart at the time. I got saved back in 2012, and I remember sharing the news with him and asking him so many questions about if I was doing things right on my faith walk.

We were better at being friends than boyfriend and girlfriend, which resulted in us ending our two year relationship. As a friend, he wanted to support me on my faith walk. Now, he is happily married and moved to a different state.

I look at the bible as a reminder of someone genuinely caring about me and how they wanted me to grow, not just in my relationship with God, but in all aspects of my life. Even though it feels like I’m in a weird season right now, I’m using this time to grow, to learn, and to create.

Well, let me get back to work so I can relax for the rest of the day. Or at least relax after I finish cleaning up around the house. A clear space is a clear mind.

Until next time…

♥️